Chapter 8, part 26.

I gotta say, this year have been pretty awesome. Even thou i saw a uglier side of life but i met alot of pretty fucking awesome people. School, work and social apps gonna be one of the good choices i made this year, (hopefully) Yes i did lose some friends along the way, but people come people go right? The friends that i lost was replaced by even better friends, end of the day, win win situation. Yes i do get affected by people leaving, esp when they made me so attached to em, make me think that those friendship was special but screwed them. I'm happy, i can finally say, im really happy. August have been the most amazing month by far. There are more up s than downs, my mental state is getting better too. Sharing my thoughts really help me alot. May the rest of 2016 be awesome too. ☺️

Chapter 8, part 21.

Today, I'm letting go of you. I've finally realized how stupid I was holding onto something that isn't worth it. You ain't worth it. I'm done thinking about what's wrong with me. I'm done being so negative about the whole situation. I'm done holding on to fuck boys. I love you, but I'm going to love myself more. Till then.

Chapter 8, part 19.

I really want to start afresh again. I want to be able to date someone without having comparing em' to you. I want a companion, I want to look forward talking to someone special, I wanna go to movie dates or dinner dates. I wanna fight, smile, cry together with another person. But how am I supposed to do all that when I can't even let someone in, I don't know how to trust someone new, all I get was just disappointment. I'm tired of being alone. I wanna have someone special. When can I let go? How do i get go of something without a closure? You were the only one who I really trusted and told my dark secrets to. What went wrong? What have i done till you had to leave? I thought we were happy?