Chapter 1, part 7.

I kinda miss so many people right now, and you know it sucks because nothing is going to be like same like before. I miss  my guy friends, call me a flirt or whatever, some of them, make me feels like i actually have a brother, the way they care and love me, i just feel so happy. I think i didnt appreciate them enough, that they left. Or something happen in between, but i really miss some of them.

Im not sure how am i supposed to describe 2015, but it have been a crazy rollar coaster ride. 2015, is the year i started blackshot and know a ton of amazing friends. Do not compare skills bc i obviously suck at it, but yeah the fun part is there. I actually got close to one of my blackshot friend, we met up and hang out a couple of time and well he left for some reason. I met another awesome guy, he is really really great, but i guess there isnt any chemistry. It sucks how we aint talking now though, i wish there isnt any feelings involved, i like how my friendship with everyone is about fun and fun and more fun. As much i think i wanna love someone new, i kinda wanna learn to love myself too. 

This year, i'm going to be 19 already. Time pass so quickly, im afraid i really am. And i dont know what to do, i have so many questions, so many doubts.  But its okay, postitive thinking. :-) I wanna create a bucket list soon and try to complete it by the end of this year. Okay  bye. Till then.